Full Moon Shadow Dancing

You probably know that we've through a Full Moon in Libra. I'm not particularly knowledgeable about astrology, but word on the street is this moon's energy has been all about relationships and connections (there's some great stuff about the astrological significance of this Full Moon here). I don't know about you guys, but the week or so leading up to the Full Moon had me feeling a lot of turmoil about the other humans on this planet! It seemed like everyone was rubbing me the wrong way, and my usually calm inner sea was raging. How appropriate, then, that I should receive a newsletter from one of my favourite metaphysical workers and writers, the lovely Bri of Milagro Roots. Her newsletter is always like a precious gift in my inbox, (I highly recommend you sign yourself up!), but this one in particular spoke precisely of what I was experiencing at that moment in time.

This newsletter explored the idea of the Shadow Dancer - that person, energy, spirit, or idea, who appears as an obstacle or irritation on our path, not to truly hurt us, but to teach us. We've all come across those from time to time! In order to fully integrate the lessons of the Shadow Dancer, we must learn to embrace its teachings, to integrate its energy into our very being, so that we can enjoy full awareness of our own natures. Basically, we have to learn to dance! And what is a dance, if not a relationship?

If you've been following my blog over the past few weeks, you may have seen that during April's lunar cycle, I am particularly interested in the idea of the shadow. When Bri suggested a five-piece (tarot or oracle cards, runes, stones, etc) Full Moon reading to dig into the idea of the Shadow Dancer, of course I had to try it for myself. My results were so interesting and personal that, with Bri's kind permission, I just had to share them with you. Her instructions:

Meeting your challenger and learning to dance with them is a task you will be asked to do many times. It is not always easy so we are fortunate to have guides that can assist us. Our ritual for this Full Moon will demonstrate one way to work with those guides.

1.) Pick up your oracle of choice--you will need to be able to draw five pieces/cards/images out from the oracle so do take that into consideration.
2.) Enter into Stillness and Silence and/or Ground, Center, and Anchor using the audio on the freebies page or your own method of choice.
3.) Ask: What or Who is my Challenger right now? Draw a card to represent this figure.
4.) Ask What do they have to teach me? Draw a card to represent the lessons and gifts your Challenger brings to you.
5.) Ask: What or who is my ally in the face of this challenge? Draw a card to represent this figure or virtue.
6.) Ask: What do they have to teach me? Draw a Card to represent their teaching or gift.
7.) Ask: How may my Challenger and Ally dance with each other? Draw a final card to provide clues and inspiration to this query.
Consider your results in the way that works best for you.

Here's what I came up with - 

In my New Moon Reading for April, I had The Lovers appear as my manifestation card for the month. Being currently very preoccupied with the idea of exploring and integrating my shadow self, I took this to be about my need to keep working on unifying the disparate sides of my personality and experience. In my head, it's all me me me me me. Imagine my surprise, then, to see the Two of Cups appear here as my Shadow Dancer. I had been so caught up in my own little world that I had interpreted The Lovers as being primarily about my own, private journey. The Universe gave me yet another cosmic bitchslap with this spread, walloping me over the head and reminding me that, "Hello, you forgot about your boyfriend!"

Let me tell you a little something about my boyfriend. My long suffering other half, who calmly tolerates and even at times smiles enthusiastically when he comes home to find the coffee table covered in quartz points, or the house reeking of sage. The King of Swords to my Page of Wands, he is endlessly interested, endlessly supportive of all the weird shit that I come out with, even if it isn't always his cup of tea. If I have to be honest with myself (and I do, now that this spread has been so blunt), while I've been preoccupied with my own soul's evolution, I haven't exactly been the most attentive or enjoyable partner. 

Funny, then, that my primary romantic relationship should appear as my Shadow Dancer under this Full Moon in Libra. I get it, Universe, I get it! All this time, I've been burrowing deeper and deeper into my own head, and becoming increasingly uncommunicative about my experience there. Some of what I am digging up is still too tenuous to be shared, but my Shadow card here says that I need to learn to draw it up, bring it into the light, and show it to the person who knows me best, no matter how weird, vulnerable and challenging that might feel. My instinct is to withdraw, but the Six of Wands says that victory lies in the other direction. Coming back, reconnecting, communicating. 

My ally in this process? The World. Always a card that makes you believe everything is on your side! Significantly, The World is also a card of unification, completion, joy. Everything I have learned so far, and everything I will yet learn, is spurring me on this quest, and everyone who has touched my life has a role to play. It's time to bring it all together, and time to learn that this party isn't just about me! Isolation and withdrawal are not the answer to my question right now. My ally's lesson, the Nine of Wands, says a burden shared is a burden halved, and we all know two halves make a whole. 

Finally, the dance. The Ace of Wands. A change to say sorry, to start over, to renew my own spiritual journey. This time, though, I have some company on the road. 


Please do your spirit (and maybe even your relationship!) a favour and head over to one of my favourite places on the internet, Bri's website, Milagro Roots. She offers all kinds of sacred services, writes a fantastic blog, and of course, sends out a newsletter that is pure gold! I do recommend you sign up. 

What was your experience of the Full Moon in Libra this week?